Because for me, it is a surrogate, but I want everything and a lot.

Because the video is not enough for me - it's just a picture.

And I love smells, touches - gentle and coarse, words whispered in my ear - gentle and coarse, penetrations, gentle and coarse. The skin on skin, hands on the bodies, cocks in the vagina, in the throat, my tongue on his scrotum, her kisses, their kisses, spanking, sweat, teeth marks, a condition where you can’t continue, but can’t stop, laughter, champagne, sweet fatigue, shared relaxation and the desire to continue.

If someone ever will invent the camera that can do all this, I’ll try.

In the meantime, we hold this forced abstinence, and I wonder what the return will be.